I'm not sure what's wrong with me at the moment, but I'm all of the sudden feeling old and wondering where the last few years have gone! Perhaps it's hit me that in February I will no longer be 29!? I think a lot of it might be to do with the fact that I went to see 'Twilight: New Moon' on Friday night (on my own as Tim was funnily enough in Seattle). I probably was, excluding parents escorting their children, about 15 years older than the other people in the cinema and it got me thinking wouldn't it be wonderful to be 19 again?! No bills, no stresses from work, sigh! I'm lucky that I have very elastic skin and no lines or wrinkles, but it's got me thinking that maybe I ought to be taking better care of myself, lose some weight (ie, a few stone!), eat healthily and wear moistouriser with a sun protection factor in it? Anyway, it has prompted me to sign up the gym this week and start going during my lunch breaks (the only time I have when I'm not doing anything - another problem for another post!), cut out the crap and I even want to stop biting my nails!
One good thing about getting older though is that only 2 years ago if someone say a colleague or client asked for my opinion I would have shyed away and not believed in myself enough to answer with confidence and clarity. In my job I'm surrounded by professors, PhDs (I don't have one) and clinicians so it doesn't pay to look young and trendy - you simply wouldn't get taken seriously. I've noticed recently that I believe in myself more and speak with confidence much more than I used to. I am by far the youngest person at work and people are always commenting on my trendy outfits and unique dress sense so why do I feel this way?
Isn't it strange how these changes creep up on you and you don't even notice? 2010 is going to be a year of change (I don't say this every year so you know it's true!) - I'm going to make more of myself, look after myself more, and make every day count. Every week I'd like to have something fun planned - even if it involves going out to dinner at the local pub, going to the cinema or doing something more exciting like go away - it's so important to keep living rather than existing. I don't want to hit 40 and wonder again what happened to the last 10 years. I've also noticed some other things have changed - I no longer care if I haven't bought anything pretty. I couldn't care less if I haven't got the latest CK goody or clothes from Boden - 6 months to a year ago that's all I wanted. I would rather save my pennies and go to Vegas, do a bungy jump, go to Venice for the weekend, get my pilot's license. Experiences are so much better than mere commodities don't you think?
Of course, I do still look young (say 25) and still get asked for ID every so often so perhaps I am overreacting somewhat? I'd love to hear from others to know if the approaching big 30 made you feel old?
Now - onto my latest guilty pleasure The Twilight Saga - I saw the first one earlier in the week on Sky and really enjoyed it. I mean, it's not something you're going to like if you are a huge film buff - it's a Sunday afternoon cozy on the sofa with your blanket and hot chocolate kind of film, but not having read the novels or heard any of the hype I was pleasantly surprised. When I heard the second installment was out this week I decided to go and see it on my own rather than sit at home on a Friday night. I have seen some negative reviews at New Moon, but I preferred it to the first film. It was a little bit more mature and darker than Twilight. If you haven't seen either of these then I would recommend watching them. Aside from the story line, there's also some serious (very young might I add!) eye candy in the form of Robert Pattinson and Taylor Lautner.
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